Hello 2013

And another year just zoom pass. 2013 really do exist! honestly, i was pretty afraid that it might really not happen! damn malayan(that's how you spell it?) calendar, make me scared only!

Well, it's the new year, oh wait, i haven list down my new year's resolution yet! let's see,

1. Good job with good pay
2. Save more money by the end of 2013
3. Get a house with my babyD
4. Live healthier with a healthier MIND!
5. Be more positive and trusting to this awesome relationship
6. Travel more with the people i love

That's all i can think for now. I just want to set my life straight again. It's been going on rocky roads for months and i dont like all the bumps and humps that i have to keep going through. Glad that i have this awesome driver with me now that accompanies me on this rough road together.

Always chance upon things that i dont want to. Hate it, but gotta accept it. And i gotta hold this phrase strongly; Everyone has a past, and the past is the past, let bygones be bygones. I realize i harp on the past too much, it's been affecting me too much. Have i not move on? I gotta to be more positive on this, and more trusting towards the trust issue. Give me some more time, i'm sure i'll be better, cant blame me for being to smart to find out so many stuffs :D

Oh well, i wish everyone an awesome 2013 ahead! (:

December 2012

Another year is passing, and it was definitely another eventful year. Full of ups and downs, in and outs.

December 2012; its supposed to be the happiest and most exciting month of the year. But i really don't feel it this year. Yes i do have D, but I don't have my sisters with me, I doubt my family will be celebrating anything this year too. But something to look forward to, i'm going over to hkg to meet up with my darlings with my babyD! All my loved ones altogether! excited or whattttt!

To sum up my year, it's really a happy-year-ending actually. Got out of love in the beginning of the year, start partying and drinking all over again, many suitors came in and out, got a job that i always wanted, trained and started visiting places i've never ever been (sydney, gold coast, japan, tianjin, taiwan), 2 best friends left me for a foreign land for a year, and lucky me, got myself a lovely boyfriend that loves me so much, got out of my job, and now, stuck in a crisis of what course of road should i take next in my life. Oh god, its like going in circles and i'm still back to square one.
Kinda disappointed in myself, because I'm suddenly lost in what i want to do.

So does all this consider a good or bad year?

We've know each other's existence, crossed path umpteen times but only now, we finally know and spoke (: It's unrealistic to know such events do happens in real life; in my life

Things are really unpredictable. I was there sobbing and the next minute, i actually found a gem, a precious gem (: 

Call me maybe? (:

In and Out

It's been 2 months of flying and i'm still loving it, and i'm just 6 months away from my dream (i wish!)

Within this short span of time, many things have happened and changed. People came and go in my live, some still stays, some still hangs there, and some has totally left.
Indeed, after knowing that A's attached, i felt totally lost. I guess, it means i have to really put an end to that. Like it or not, he has obviously moved on, and myself, realizing that i've not been moving at all. Its merely people moving in and out of my life.

Of cos i dated, but nothing is my cup of tea. They are like nice teabags but just doesnt suit my taste, be it rich  or sweet, it just didnt have that similiar taste, until R came in.
One major thing about human; they want what they cant have, and dont want what is right in front of them. Is this really the reason? Or is R really that taste that i have always been looking for? I really don't know, what i know; i really do miss him and it sucks to feel this way, because i know once i feel this way, i bound to get hurt. I hope all will turn out right soon. Its kind of becoming a torment for me. Sigh, human always often don't get what they want isn't it?

And 3 more weeks to my best babies return! I really can't wait, they are really what i need now the most. I don't know how are we gonna spend sufficient time because i only got 3 days. Johnson came up with a theme: HELL OF A WEEKEND! He claims that we gotta wake up the next day naked and don't know who's laying beside. MAD! I just can't wait. It's really gonna be the best weekend of the year yo!

Well, enough said, just finished a bkk turn and i'm feeling real tired. I really do start to have signs of ageing badly. I cant club till lights on, and i cant drink like before, i get aches everywhere after clubs, its really that bad! But nonetheless, i still love my nightlife! ♥ Its THE most exciting!

Post SEP & First Aid

Yayyy! 3 weeks of SEP and first aid has finally ended! Come to think of it, it was pretty fast, and here we go, doing grooming tmr already! And just 2 more weeks, we're graduating and ready to fly! (:
First aid was not easy, fortunately, I work in a medical line, so I was pretty familiar with some of the terminologies. So, i'm an official first aider now! Anyone needs CPR? (:

Training Day #7

3 more days till my practical assessment! Its so much scarier than the theory one! i hope the assessor would go easy on us! I really cant wait to end this course!Anyway, here are some photos taken in the midst of training. (: 

And i got my crew pass (: FREE ENTRY TO BUTTER! (: hehe!

Tomorrow's gonna do ditching. Which means, i got to jump from the aircraft into the water!OMG! I'm really looking forward to END it! And i hope, i wont get ditching evacuation during my assessment! I anticipate a really tiring day tmr! But, training's getting better everyday i would say, closer to the batchies, closer to the trainer, and getting more heart-warming each day (: Getting used to the greetings custom at STC, and hanging a smile on your face no matter how tired you are. I'm really looking forward to flying, because i know, this is a job, i will never regret. FLYSCOOT!

Training day #4;

It's Day 2 of SEP training, and there's he'll loads of things to study and remember for the assessment next week. The practical assessment is kinda freaking me out, because we were told that our instructor is pretty stringent and will fail people in the batch! Omg! ): this is really not eaay, everything just seem so glamorous from the outside. But the trainings that the drill you, are really crazy.
Slowly getting closer to the people in y batch, which means the real me is coming out soon. It would probably be better, at least I'll start to feel comfortable with people around me (:
I want to faster end my SEP, at Least I have minimal knowledge for first aid, so I guess it wouldn't be that bad!

Oh well, it's been long time since I say this, tmr's TGIF! Finally! (:

Training Day #3

SEP (Safety, and Emergency Procedure) training starts today! It's also my first day at SIA Training Centre (STC). Its a very stringent place i would say. We gotta greet everybody we have our eye contact with, and we have to groom ourselves exactly like them, excluding the blue eye shadows fortunately!
First day was scary, because we got to familiarize with the actions for the life jacket demo and we got to shout commands during emergency exercise! seriously, being an air stewardess aint easy at all!
I dont have eye remedies in my batch ): (if you know what i mean) But i saw lots of them during my lunch break! all from SQ! ): I need more of those to motivate me through this 6 weeks! Its only the 3rd day and i'm complaining non-stop already! HELP ME!
oh oh oh, my flight will be called OQ, so it will be, e.g, OQ003 (:

I cant wait for training to end already! or rather, i cant wait for weekends! its gonna the most awesome day of the week! (:

training day #1

16th Apr; My training finally commenced. Definitely a long day i had today. Reported at Scoot's Office @ T1 at 9am. Got welcomed by many speeches from different heads of different department. I really admire them because they are all from different prestiges airlines but are willing to put those down and come join in the project of setting up a brand new airline. The ground staffs all seems pretty well to work with.
Saw my batch mates for the next 6 weeks, 20 of us will be surviving this whole training course together. 3 training courses for the next 6 weeks; SEP (Standard Emergency Procedure), First Aid, and CCRM (Cabin Crew Relation Management).
Headed all the way to Simei ITE for more briefings and speeches. And i'm so glad i'm staying in the East. I see all my batch mates that got to travel from here all the way to the west, and got to wake up so early in the morning, i really feel very glad that i stay just so near to all the training centres!
I believe, its going to be a very tiring 6 weeks for me! I cant wait for it to end already! Pretty excited for what's gonna go on. I hope my batch mates are easy to get along!
And because of grooming, i finally got something that i never used; A COMB!

oh oh oh! anyone interested in joining scoot? their having a mass recruitment soon!
http://www.flyscoot.com/index.php/en/career
Send in your resume here! shortlisted candidate will be notified!

Last day of work (:

Finally, it's my last day of work over here. I'll still come back, but not as often. Honestly, I'll miss this place, I'm pretty attached to it already, I've been here even more than I am at home!
And, I'm so looking forward to my new job and training! (: finally, something different in my life! This, is the second biggest achievement of my life I guess; fulfilling my dream. (:

just for my dear girl ♥ farewell party (:

Here's your photos darling (: not all of it, i only selected the few that's nicer and more presentable (: 

dont think i need to say much, because pictures speaks a thousand words ♥

First farewell party @ M Hotel - Jbar 

Crystal Jade Xiao Long Bao Steamboat Buffet with the darlings  ♥

Second farewell @ M Hotel - Jbar 

NAH! LOL! (: 

♥♥♥ 

hehehehe (: 

And, our last ladies night @ St James Power Station 

with our lovely bro! ♥

Here's some photo from Reanne/PeiPei farewell (: Its been awhile since i upload photos to my blog! it seems so much easier to upload to blog right now (:

Mobile blogging

Cool! Okay, I don't know how mountain I am, but I just realized that i can blog from my phone. GREAT! I've always wanted to blog from my phone! Well, I use my phone more then my computer.
Gonna do a longer post tonight, specially for my dearest (:

2012 begins

Towards the 4th month of 2012, i'm stepping into a new milestone of my life. I have realise my dream of becoming a cabin crew @ Scoots (: Although, yes, its not the prestiges SQ, but hey, its a stepping stone right? not many people have this chance too. Training starts this month on the 16th, and i'm so looking forward to it. My new life is going to start soon (: 

My dearest girl is leaving for china in a week's time for a year. how time flies, she was just discussing whether or not to fly off and ta-da, she is going to fly off on the 1st of Apr. I really kinda wish that it is a April fool's joke. But nonetheless, i'll give her my greatest blessing and wish that she'll do well over there. I still cant imagine my weekends, my free time meet ups, and my night-life without her. She has always been there, and now, we are separated between a 5-6 hours flight distance. 

Its really a year of change, everyone's flying, getting new jobs, and i really hope i'll love mine, i'm sure i will (: 

CNY 2012

Cny this year seems so different. Everyone has grown up, visiting doesnt seem so lively as previous years and places the visit are even lesser. And, its a pretty lonely cny for me this year. Visitings gonna stop at Day 1. No more places for me to visit already. It's so different from the previous 2 chinese new year that i had. 

Everyone's asking and i really don't know how to answer, it really seemed like everyone had recognised him, i feel proud of that, but at the same time, not anymore because he is no longer mine. 

I've finally state my stand and gonna leave clinic at least by may/june. I definitely need to bring myself somewhere better, at least somewhere else other than where i am now. I want to at least do some changes to my life in 2012. I need to step out of my comfort zone and explore this vast world outside it. 

Up till now, i'm still so indecisive on matters of the heart. 

NYE

its new year's eve already! 2011 is coming to an end tonight! i'm gonna end my year with a blast! i had a bad end for the last 2 weeks of the year! breakups, exams, sleepless nights. But still i had a great year, eventful year, crazy 2011. I gotta start being to step out my comfort zone in the new year ahead. I dont want to continue just bring a clinic assistant, it aint gonna work that way.
Coming up with my resolution now, the last day on 2011 it is, and i'm looking forward to these in 2012;
- Get a LIFE!
- Cutting down on drinks and clubs.
- Get into SIA
- Tone-up my getting-out-of-shape body
- Be happier
- Have a great prospect job (that's if i dont get into SIA)
- ENJOY 2012! ♥

Generally, these are what i wish to fulfil. and i hope i do so! 2011 was awesome, i;ll make 2012 better (:
HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR EVERYONE! ♥

right or not?

I dont know whether i have made the right decision for this. But i only know it is right for now, in future, i dont know will i regret the decisions i made now. I know i'm seen as the one that has caused all the heartbreaks and all, i know he is good, but they can never stand in my shoe and think in my point of view.
Well, i can only leave it this way for now. I dont know what will happen in future, i'll just leave it to fate to decide.
Another matter, also at the back of my head. I seem all so dont care, but in fact, i do care alot. Because its kinda affecting me already and i dont like to feel this way. Its a barrier, a barrier that enables me to look ahead of what will it be like behind that tall wall. I can never know yet, and my gut feeling is not telling me anything right. Oh well, i just have to open up my mind more, probably than i can have a better picture of what's awaiting behind that barrier.

21 now, and i should enjoy what i can now. I shouldn't be thinking of such stuffs to obstruct my route to enjoyment. I'm sure i can enjoy better than this and lead an even better life than this. I hope i can attain this in the new year ahead.
Now, all i wish for is a better job, better pay and better life. 3 simple wishes but it just seems so unreachable. Its getting really tiring to work like this. I'm a normal young adult afterall, i need my privilege to live my life better, and not torture myself to work from 8.30-11pm almost everyday. yes, i'm young, i have to work hard blah blah blah, but how many of them are actually like that in fact? i'd rather be the norms, than having such torture and hardship all in the name of Money! I promise myself, to earn better, live better and do better in the near future, because i would never want myself to turn into this route ever again!

a day more to adulthood

21. My big 21 is finally here. finally stepping into adulthood. Had my awesome scarlet celebration last weekend! (: it was an awesomely red party! ♥ Thanks to the greatest sister i have, my party was pretty much a success (: with booze and more booze!! I have the most unexpected people turning up for my 21st, and they are really a great bunch of friends that i would like to keep.

Stepping into adulthood bring more responsibility and commitment. Honestly, i feel that i dont even hold a proper job even up till now. My greatest wish now is to fly with SIA so i can enjoy the great freedom of travelling, and to be able to not get my mind off on stuff that i dont want to think about.

I hope my life can go back on track soon. Its fucking screwed up now, but i'm really glad that i still have awesome friends around me to rely when i needed someone. THANKYOU ALL♥ you know who you are (:

Best of both world?

In life, one can never get the best of both world, you can only choose one and forsake the other. And the worse is, i dont even know what i want myself because i know whichever i give up, i will regret it one day.
I just want escape from reality sometimes. i know its the dumbest and most ridiculous way but at least, it wont cause me so much thinking and heartache. I just want to be free from all this thoughts, at least for awhile.
Fun or Commitment?

It was a great 1st halloween spent. Although some hiccups in between, nonetheless, it was still fun with all my loved ones ♥

Vicious Cycle

I realised i'm never free from any financial burden, whenever one is solved, another will surface. Its like a never ending vicious cycle. I'm sick and tired of all these. When can it stop?
I only ask for a debt-free profile for myself and my family. Nothing more, life's of a normal family. I don't ask for riches and luxury, i just ask for stability and comfort. This is all i'm yearning for now.

I want to be away from all this, call it avoiding, i just want to leave my mind off all these. I just want to be in my own world, for at least awhile, to cool down, to find myself again.