CNY 2012

Cny this year seems so different. Everyone has grown up, visiting doesnt seem so lively as previous years and places the visit are even lesser. And, its a pretty lonely cny for me this year. Visitings gonna stop at Day 1. No more places for me to visit already. It's so different from the previous 2 chinese new year that i had. 

Everyone's asking and i really don't know how to answer, it really seemed like everyone had recognised him, i feel proud of that, but at the same time, not anymore because he is no longer mine. 

I've finally state my stand and gonna leave clinic at least by may/june. I definitely need to bring myself somewhere better, at least somewhere else other than where i am now. I want to at least do some changes to my life in 2012. I need to step out of my comfort zone and explore this vast world outside it. 

Up till now, i'm still so indecisive on matters of the heart.